broken.

I'm not a writer. I don't claim to be one. But, I thought that if I had something to keep me accountable, somewhere to spill out what my heart it full of... maybe it would be beneficial.

God has been challenging me so much this week in what it means to truly be living a life worthy of Jesus. What do I know and believe about this God I've been following? Not just the big stuff. The little stuff. Is Jesus in every fiber of my life? Do I fill myself up with things that are true and beautiful and excellent in every aspect of my life? Why do I make the decisions that I make? Are they grounded in Jesus and in truth that Jesus has revealed to me or are they grounded in what I think is right as a Christian... or are they even grounded? 

I crave a relationship with the Father. I want him to be so real in my life. I want people to look at me and be incapable of not seeing Jesus. Father cover me.

I have such a passion for ministry and for oversea missions. I don't know where to go with that. I don't know when and where, but I am going to start really praying that the Lord will open a door for that to be made possible.

The title of this blog is genuine love. This has been my life "calling" for the past 3 years. Looking at the life of Jesus... it wasn't about religion and making sure that people knew you were a good person. Jesus was about love. Real, unfiltered, raw love. Love that corrected, love that forgave, and love that brought people out of a broken life. I pray that I can show love like Jesus. Genuine love. Romans 12:9-13 is where I got that from.

Jesus has really challenged me to start digging into His word in a real way.  Not reading it as a moral duty but reading it to get to know Him and have a firm foundation for what I believe. 

That's a jumbled mess.

Oh well. Jesus knows my heart. I'm going to start reading the Bible with a purpose and a plan... and hopefully will be writing about what God is teaching me. See you next time.

beloved